Friday, March 27, 2009

Spring


As spring creeps up the drain pipe, I see the air filled with butterflies...blue and black...spiralling in pairs, a frenzy of nervous energy...

I spot a pupa on the new-born leaves of my Ashoka, as I help it shed its old weight, plucking off dead leaves...

and a couple makes love in the shadows of the neem, as the last of Danae's
gold showers upon them...

spring is here, it seems.

Meanwhile, I have begun cultivating obsessions...

...Paper Butterflies!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Clogged


1) Woe is me!

2) I am/have been/will be suffering from what them people call THE 'Writer's block'. Gasp! (Yes, I presume I am a writer, I speculate not on the quality of my produce...pssst!!...somebody praise me...please!!)

3) I have been desperate enough to seek a cure. (Oh! the agony and shame of a public confessional...what the heck! you/we/I are all voyeurs)

4) Some one (i name not who) suggests I seek hypno-therapy. Exciting! Very...Though I'm chary about disclosing my super-secret plans on how to unleash a lesbian democracy.

5) I think I'll pass.

6) Here are the more mundane of the cures... One. B. Omega

7) Here's what I liked. Translate a random poem, from a foreign language into English. Start a Journal (I have the perfect little red journal-looking-journal for this!). Take a hike. Take pictures. Flip through old pictures. Watch foreign pictures. Flirt (Yeah, sure! If it helps with the blockage...I'll sign up for a harem). Meditate (ugh!)

23) If by the end of this I am unable to produce some fancy-schmaltzy piece of ecriture...then I'll...Pout. Plagiarize. Shut Blog. Write Limericks. Sell Lemonade. Stalk dogs. Kill ants. Tell fortunes. Sing in DTC buses. and bury myself somewhere...do you care?

50) Let the unclogging begin...

Saturday, March 7, 2009

On the Saturday Beat...

When idle and desperate, I randomly google stuff…famous people, obscure events, passing references, funny names, puzzling words, crossword clues, lost worlds, unborn babies, dead ages, dormant fossils etcetra…and I inadvertently manage to find something interesting that offers to validate my existence (to me, in the very least).

And sometimes, the long lazy hours of writhing on the web yield gems…Allen Ginsberg, for example. Almost a year back, while putting together a hurried 1500 words on ‘American Poets and the Celebration of Democracy’, I had passed him over to look into the more optimistic works of Walt Whitman. A year on, I am older, hopefully wiser and definitely more cynical. So I put aside my ‘Leaves of Grass’ and took up 'Howl'.

What I discovered was delicious...acerbic bitterness of dreams gone sour.

Moloch! Solitude! Filth! Ugliness! Ashcans and unobtainable dollars! Children screaming under the stairways! Boys sobbing in armies! Old men weeping in the parks! Moloch! Moloch! Nightmare of Moloch! Moloch the loveless!

Whitman, who wrote during the mid-19th century, celebrated (without sounding jingoistic) the, as yet, young American democracy and the multiplicities that it served (or would serve) to unite under the spangled starry banner. (Sample 'I hear America singing' or 'Song of Myself'). While, Ginsberg gave voice to the nightmarish realisations, where Whitman's visions had found home, over an intervening period of hundred years.

Writing almost a century after Whitman, Allen Ginsberg arrived on the scene with the Beatniks of the 50s, who eventually became the hippies of the 60s...when the triumphalist euphoria, surrounding a once young nation, had gone kaput, having roughed two World wars, the Great Depression, the Cold War, the Red scares of Mc Carthy-ite era...women, blacks, homosexuals and minorities of all kinds, carrying on with a much oppressed, discriminated-against existence.

The 50s and the 60s were remarkable times...evident in the manner in which counter-culture surged to challenge conformist currents. Thye were interesting times, no doubt, (Note the rise of Communism, Civil Rights Movement, Sexual liberation, Rock n' Roll, Feminism, Black empowerment, MJ-crusading) in the company of some very interesting people (Fidel Castro, Che, Beatles, Doors, Hendrix, Dylan, Marley, Martin Luther King, Andy Warhol, Jack Kerouac and the list goes on).

And Ginsberg is a product of these times, to be sure...a witness, a critic and a poet in mourning.

America I’ve given you all and now I’m nothing.
America two dollars and twenty-seven cents January 17, 1956.
I can’t stand my own mind.
America when will we end the human war?

America you don’t really want to go to war.
America it’s them bad Russians
Them Russians them Russians and them Chinamen. And them Russians.
The Russia wants to eat us alive. The Russia’s power mad. She wants to take our cars from our garages.

Yet, what I personally found more interesting than the poet's trenchant critique of 20th century American society (or could it be 21st century India?!) and the brand of conservative blindness engendered by Capitalist mores...was how he transcends his location in time and space and finds relevance in contemporary ethos...minorities have still not found their voice, and them Pakistanis and them Chinamen are still plaguing human existence...we humans have managed to stand in the same waters twice.

Now before ones gets lost into a holier-than-thou mode, it is advisable I share the gem unearthed in the boredom of dreary saturday hours, and take leave. Presenting...the trigger - a video of Ginsberg, dressed as Uncle Sam (or so it seems), reciting 'The Ballad of American Skeletons', to the music of Paul McCartney. Theatrical, vitriolic...the old man is all afire!
(An alternate version containing the unedited lyrics in a live performance can be found here. As a plus you get to feast your eyes on McCartney strumming his guitar alongside)

Not a single line goes amiss!

And damn me if you don't end up tapping your feet to the Beat!

Thursday, March 5, 2009


My backyard has a few trees…
Yellow, golden and sometimes green

Cataloguing

I want to….(in no particular order)

Twirl
Listen to jazz
Climb a tree

Keep a pet ladybird
Give birth to a fish

Witness the battle of Troy
Read Derrida without cringing
Sleep without guilt
Work without pain
Menstruate without cramps

Dance with abandon

Learn to drive/swim/play the guitar/piano/drums/saxophone/harmonica

Solve the Rubik’s cube
Visit the ruins of Machu Pichu
Run barefoot at India Gate

Blow soap bubbles

Pluck apples under a Tuscan sun
Make wine

Volunteer for the blind

Spend a night in Dharamshala

Become Diana’s virgin priestess
Tie a thread at Fatehpur Sikri
Lounge on Barista couches

Gaze into Oneiros’ eyes

Meet a butterfly

Shake hands with a penguin

Hear Lucifer talk
Watch Marquez write
Colour my face for a soccer match

Grow wit


Split an atom






Cultivate a library

Play Scrabble


Solve a crime



Throw a shoe at somebody
Walk without being raped
Draw water from a well
Wake up to a voice
Chat with Pandora
Make a shoe that fits

Own a field of carnations
Paint a wall orange
Know why ignorance is bliss and not a birthright

Not say “ThankGod”

Shriek in the rain
Stare at the sun


Row boat in an umbrella

Collect wine corks


Cycle down a slope


get up and go

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

(over)Heard in the metro, a day after the terrorist attack on the Sri Lankan cricket team in Pakistan:

"Glad we're here, not there."